Juan77, 46

This has to be the craziest thing I've done in a long time. I was in a relationship a long time ago, and from what I thought, it was going pretty well. That was until she came back from her vacation with her parents back home and unknowingly passed on this disease to me. Afterwards I never thought I could live a normal life, yet alone concieve the possibility of another relationship. I would like to meet someone to just hang out with, to begin anew, a relationship to build upon that could lead to other things. I've never been an optimist, only to my family and friends, but to myself, always a realist, with that being said. The only real thing that I've ever known is that my life has been limited due to this disease. I always thought I was the only one who ever felt like this, but I'm glad I was wrong. If anything I would like to be more honest with myself as with others, so if your willing to sit down and chat and have a few laughs. Then that would be the start to regain both our sense or normality back. If we can truly call it that. lol. I do have a sense of sarcasm about me, a dark sense of humor if you will. Not that dark though. I would just like to meet people who are just as scared as I am but at the same time willing to close the door on that fear. I rather live in the light than darkness that encompasses my way of living. I just don't like living alone. It makes me pretty sad and at times pathetic, not being to be totally honest with women. I would just like to feel alive again.